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being home and finding things out that i knew i would have to discover when i got home, was easier than i thought. not what i expected. i've had a few surprises; i.e. mike has a girlfriend (and i'm terribly jealous), still in love with demetri, without jovana i have no friends here, but i can deal with all those surprises. i can handle it. i'm not a mess of a person, like i was before and (honestly) during bible school. God is more than enough, i need Him everyday. i need to thank Him everyday. i'll be alright.
with Him i can be friends with demetri and mike, i can make new friends or just wait until jovana gets home in november. it's not a big deal. whatev. i'm going to start going to mars hill church and get a job, help my college pastor out with the church he's starting in february. maybe help start a youth group there.
i have plans and so does God, for me. i want to go to azuza next fall and do the global studies major there. i want to work in anything with international relations. i know that if i let Him, He will use me. i have so much hope in the future. a new feeling that i hope stays.

so those friends that are worried, relax. i'm doing well because God is good. i'm writing all this with a smile that's genuine. contentment i guess.