REUNION

tomorrow is new year's eve which = the day i get to see people i love and miss! Erin Charleston gets the friend of the year award for giving me a ride down to BJ's in Olympia, and so does Jenna Berkan for offering! yea for winter school westcoast reunion!

and on a spring school note Nathaniel Smith is coming here at 12:30pm on friday january the 13th! we're so excited! we've got plans..

Azusa Pacific sent me finacial aid information, but haven't yet said if i'm accepted. more playing with my emotions. i'm beginning to resent this school. that's alright, i'll just get back at them by applying to Multnomah.

the countdown

in four months from today it's my birthday. i'll be ridiculously old then. on Christmas i told my family that i want a pair of 7 jeans for my birthday and they can all pitch in and start saving now.

it's J's birthday tomorrow!

Happy Birthday J, my husband, my friend. a gift to us on Christmas was your birth 20 years ago!

i'm so excited!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE!! YEA!

i don't get into 'the Christmas spirit' until Christmas Eve, then i get really excited and can't sleep tonight and get up at 6am on Christmas. i so wish Santa was real. i have to do my stockings by myself this year because my sister's dad has her Christmas Eve and we don't get her until like 9. oh the joys of a broken home...ha ha.

and Nate bought his tickets yesterday for here! but first the capernwray reunion on new year's eve!
i'm buying caroline's apple ibook, which is much needed especially since i'm going back to school in the fall! and planning on turning my 7 hours of footage into a dvd and have it done and mailed to winter school kids by our end of school anniversary in march.

"he's just not that into you"

it's a title of a book. i'm reading it. why? because i like to torture myself. apparently out of all the guys i've dated only 2 of them have actually been 'into to me'. James and Alan. but unfortunately i broke their hearts...poor guys. i didn't really like them i was just bored, so i dated them and broke up with them shortly thereafter. i think alan had it worse, i cheated on him. why i'm proclaiming this online? because i mainly feel like i'm talking to myself and (the real reason) that was before bible school and i feel so disconnected to who i was then and who i am now. when i talk about my life then i feel like i'm talking about someone else. God has changed me, made me a new person. there's no part of me that feels capable of doing the things i did to those guys. i have issues babysitting another cat because i feel like i'm cheating on my own! hmm i love kitties...

apparently i'm sensitive now, which is often hard for me to handle. i've lived my whole life NOT being sensitive and to suddenly be sensitive is slightly alarming. i have to learn things that most people have already learned, because there are so many emotions i didn't feel, like jealousy; apparently i get jealous! that one's new! when i first came back and found out Mike had a girlfriend i was so jealous took me awhile to figure out what i was feeling, i was so confused at what emotion that was (i was asking caroline!). i had never been jealous before.

my heart was hard and broken, my God soften it and put it back together. now i'm learning to give it to God everyday. and i don't need a guy around when i'm bored, i need God around all the time. God has my life planned. He has somebody for me, i'm not worried. it's not everything either, i'm so much more than a future wife.

ps. i recommend looking into the passage about when Jesus curses the fig tree and what Proverbs says about a fig tree. Mark 11:12-14, 20-24 and Proverbs 27:18. my pastor at City Church is talking about it relating to your devotional life. it's amazing! you can listen to it online. http://www.thecity.org/ pastor Judah Smith.

a little game of tag

usually i don't play along with these online tagging games, but since Phiune tagged me, i can play the game of tag on here.

5 weird habits:

1. i "play" with my nose ring (which means i clean it, pick the boogers off of it, turn it around...) a lot.
2. i like to wear my giant, dark sunglasses inside because then i can hide behind them.
3. i like to stay up and watch 'sex and the city' at 11pm even though sometimes i have to get up at 5:30 to open the next morning.
4. i like everything at my store to be what i call "balanced." the towels folded, the stuff in the freezer straightened, all the syrup bottles facing the same way, etc.
and...
5. i always wear the same orange tank top under everything, even though i bought a really soft blue one to wear instead of the stretched out orange one. my roomates from c'wray probably remember it.

so now i tag Liana, J, Courtnay, Caleb, and Heidi. just write 5 weird habits and then tag 5 people. and you have to leave the people you tag comments on their blog/xanga/whatever to let them know that they are tagged. if i can do it you can too.

never..

..watch the notebook alone. i always cry so much at this movie. for some reason i've been wanting to watch it and when my sister's friend brought it over and they watched, i asked her if i could borrow it. i then watched it by myself that night. everyone cries more alone. i think this movie impacts me so much because i have loved and lost.

there's a line in it from the main guy to the girl.
"i want you. i want all of you, everyday."

guess what!

i got a promotion! what what! brush my shoulders off! my boss is giving one of his stores to his soon-to-be ex wife and she's going to need a "right-hand girl". it's pretty much an associate manager position, i'm thinking. my boss just told me yesterday, and him, his ex-wife, and i are going to talk about it. this definetly means a raise! i was so close to getting another job. this is so good!

next a car...

chocolate and books

i'm eating a plate of cookies at 12:30 in the morning. i could not be more content when i am with chocolate.

i bought a journal today. spent a good hour picking out the perfect one. why? well i'm going to start writing my book. a novel. spent these past 3 months, being home and bored, coming up with ideas and decided i really want to write a novel. this year home just working and doing nothing else, i realised that this would be the best time, probably ever, to write a book.
scared half to death at the idea.