fucking shit.
a comment i left Courtnay today pretty much describes me and how i'm doing right now. you have to read into it to get it. i was trying to figure out how to post about how i'm doing when i'm not too sure myself, but it came out in this this comment. go and read the one before it from me, that's funny too.
"and i have an almost complete lack of emotion for people right now. except for you. and heather. i fucking love heather, and you. but that's it."
-Birdie
posted by kaylie @ 2:16 AM
5 Comments:
sooooo...are you trying to say you don't love us? or even like us?
seems an odd thing to post if that is indeed what you are saying...
no not that. of course i still love you guys, and like you too. but just saying my emotions are leveling out. it was more in reference to people i talk to everyday. but mostly in reference to guys and having feelings for them. as in i don't have feelings for guys anymore. well unless you're the all famous Demetri then i'm still comepletely in love with you.
aw suck. stupid boys. actually, stupid girly nature that we can't get past boys out of our head. that is not fair. damn that eve. she screwed us all.
Pray details are on my blog.
I know what you are doing but I know not why you do it. I could guess I might be right but today I long not to understand. I long only that you would have peace and assurance that we know right from wrong and that they is a reason for why somethings are right and something are wrong and it is not just because some tight ass chrisitan said so. I wish that I could have been used for more good in your life then I have. I feel like I have had so many opportunities even in the last month where I could have said and done things differently. Maybe it would have changed they way we are right now. But I know I put too much power in my actions. I'm with you Kaylie I feel it.... I see it and I pretend it will all go away. I love you. God loves you ( I know you don't believe that alot of times) I pray for you mom and her surgery I pray it will all go well and that she will have you there to support her. I like having you in my life. I just wish I listen more to the call of God's voice then to the call of my own.
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